Going “back home”
In January I went back to the UK for the first time since immigrating to Canada and it was a very strange experience. Before we left we were feeling pretty damned miserable as it felt like it was the end of our holiday in Canada rather than the beginning of our holiday in England. We just did not want to leave Canada because we love it so much.
Once we got to England, there were a few things that immediately jumped out at me - firstly there are so many gates and hedges and fences marking people’s property and indicating ownership of land. Secondly, it seemed to be so bone-chillingly cold even though the temperature was similar to Vancouver’s. Thirdly, everything is crowded and cramped - streets are narrow which makes them very busy with traffic. Fourthly, everywhere is so flat! Lastly, yob culture is very much alive in the UK, and I found it shocked me a lot more than I ever thought possible. A lot of young men, especially, seem to put a lot of effort into looking and sounding insolent and threatening.
I think the hardest thing for us to deal with was that although it was wonderful to see our families and friends, it seemed that most people would politely ask us how our lives were in Canada but not really be interested in the answer. When we talked about “In Canada…this” and “In Canada…that”, we got the overwhelming sense that we were boring them and should change the subject. This was incredibly difficult because “In Canada…” is now our life and we obviously want to talk about how our lives are going. Instead we just talked about other people’s lives and relationships and the economy and the snow etc.
It is interesting that every other ex-pat that I have spoken to about that particular issue has felt the same. I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately and I’ve come to the conclusion that it is a big issue for one or several of the following reasons:
1) They can’t fully comprehend living anywhere else and so they don’t find it particularly interesting and switch off.
2) They don’t want to hear about how much we are enjoying our lives because they aren’t enjoying their lives as much but are stuck there either because they can’t move or they won’t move because they can’t stand such a big upheaval.
3) It hurts them to hear of us happily and successfully enjoying our life away from them when they used to be such a big part of it.
4) They are (maybe unknowingly) patriotic toward England so don’t want to hear why we like Canada better.
I suspect it is more the third reason than any other. And I also think that we project our own feelings of guilt onto them - our guilt for leaving them behind and enjoying ourselves so much without them. We feel as if we are gloating every time we talk about our “new lives” and so assume they don’t want to hear it!
The good things about going back: it was a really social time and I realised that all the good friends I had that are as useless at contacting me as I am at contacting them are still my very good friends; meeting my friends’ new babies and seeing their new houses; the old English tradition of going down the pub(s); having the chance to have a proper catch up with our grandparents who cannot travel; spending quality time with the rest of our family; taking Graham for a long, nostalgic walk through my childhood neighbourhood; British lasagne, British Indian food and British Chinese food!
Posted on 6th March 2009
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