Hebrews 11:1 “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”
As I sit here I think back to so many times faith has come into play in my life. The biggest situation was when my son was born. Shortly after arriving in this world things started to go bad for him in a hurry. After being cleaned up the nurses brought him in for my wife to hold him and feed him. This took place for less then a minute when my sister realized that Kolten was turning a funny shade. The nurses came in and rushed him out of the room and into the nurses station. Of course I was directly behind as I had planned on NEVER letting my son out of my sight in the hospital. With my wife in the room recovering from just giving birth and now worried to death about her new baby I stood around listening to the doctor and nurses talk. After some discussion they told me that he had low blood sugar. He was born in Blue Hill hospital which is a small coastal hospital. After doing a few tricks of the trade on him they decided it would be best to transport him to Eastern Maine Medical Center in Bangor, Maine. This would mean EMMC would need to send a special five person team down to transport him. Then they told me I would not be able to ride with him in the vehicle. After spending a bunch of time with him trying to comfort this new guy it was the dreaded time to go in and tell my wife our baby was needing more attention then the hospital could give him and he was going to be transported to Bangor. So, I went in and told her in those exact words. She cried and had a look on her face that will always be vivid in my mind. I told her that I would need to go to the hospital and be with him, even though this would mean leaving her alone. It took some time for the team to show up. They put him in an incubator and wheeled him in for my wife to see him again. This was a quick visit and they wheeled him out. They told me I would need to give them a half hour lead as they did not want me to follow them because they would need to move around a lot in the vehicle and this would be dangerous for me. Well, I did listen to their commands for the most part. From Blue Hill to Bangor there are two main routes. I knew they was talking one way so immediately after they left, I kissed my wife and my mother and I was out the door. It was a super foggy night and very hard to see. I did not rush to the hospital but was not taking my sweet time either. I arrived at EMMC and checked in at the nursing station. I asked about Kolten Sargent and was told he was not there yet. What? How did I beat an ambulance? Then the million things go through your mind…is something wrong? What is taking them so long? Shortly after that I was told he had arrived and I would be able to go in and see him once he was set up.
I was lead into the Neonatal Intensive Care room and showed how to scrub up. Then led to a bed where my son was lying. He had wires and different things hooked up to him. He needed a breathing tube, they was testing his blood sugar level every half hour which required a prick to his foot.(by the time they was done his foot looked like hamburg) I asked the nurse how long he would be in there. She told me it could be three days or more depending on if he eats on his own. She then added boys usually have a hard time in this area. I sat with him for majority of the night only taking a couple breaks to go into the waiting room.
Throughout the night and the next morning not much changed. They was still testing him, he was still requiring a feeding and breathing tube. About noon my dad showed up with my wife. I showed my wife how to check in and brought her to see Kolten. We spent the next several hours with Kolten. About 8 p.m. we decided to travel the half hour home so my wife and I could rest(at this point I had been up for 40 straight hours). Throughout the night we called several times to check on him. Early the next morning we was back in Bangor to spend the entire day with our son. On this day we was able to remove him from his bed and sit in a chair and hold him. He was still hooked up to all kinds of machines but to me this was progress.
On Sunday things were looking really good for him. He was moved out of the room with the really sick babies down to a room that had regular cribs and some of the bigger babies. We held him and talked with him, fed him, and bathed him that day. We were told he is doing really good and should be able to go home on Tuesday. Wow! This was great news. Again on Sunday night we came home. Monday morning up and at it again early. It was January in Maine and super cold on this morning. EMMC has a road leading up to the main entrance. The road is surrounded by buildings making this like a wind tunnel. Due to being so cold, I decided to drop my wife off at the door and I would park out in the lot and walk in. My wife told me she would meet me in the NICU. After parking the truck I went up to the NICU and peeked in the room where he was the previous night. I did not see Kolten or my wife, Michelle. I thought that is kind of funny but maybe they are doing a bath or something.
In the NICU there are five rooms. The fourth room had a space age looking table and was the only one in the room. I saw several people standing around the table working on a baby. I thought to myself, oh that poor baby. My thoughts and prayers immediately went out to the family of that baby. To be in the room by himself that was not a good sign. Then all of a sudden I realized one of the people standing around the table was my wife. I scrubbed up and entered the room. There was literally six medical people working on him. I was told they didn’t know what was going on but they would be doing test to find out. After what seemed like an eternity they told us he had spinal meningitis. This would require them to treat him with anti-biotics for 21 days. This would mean putting a pic line in him. Which is a long tube that goes in his arm, head, or leg into his stomach area.
The day before we had what appeared to be a healthy kid that would be going home in two days to a very sick kid that may not live. The doctors as they have to told us what could happen. Of course the worse being he could easily die. He could be blind, deaf, mentally impaired, have learning disabilities, and several other areas of risk.
Over the next several days nothing changed. His pic line stopped working a couple times, one time he ripped it out, and they needed to put it back in each time. After about a week of this it appeared as though he was kicking it and he started to come around. He was moved into the furthest room again with a regular crib about 10 days after. He was now eating good and was getting stronger and healthier each day.
Finally on Superbowl Sunday a little over a month later he was able to come home. We would still need to take him back for developmental testing for two years as we was instructed. We did this for a year and they told us, he’s fine. Unless you have concerns in the future don’t come back to see us.
Now, Kolten is 2.5 years old and is doing great. There are no developmental concerns and he is the typical two year old.
As I think back to this event the only thing that got me through was faith. I remember crying and telling God not to take my son from me. I remember going through the feeling sorry for myself. Asking God “Why me”? The great thing was God was telling and teaching both my wife and I to “trust me”. Here we had what was the most precious gift to us, I could not do anything. I was helpless. That is not a good feeling for me. One time riding home in the truck it was real clear to me, God was telling me to “trust him” completely. So, from that day on that’s what I did. This at times meant trusting him even if it meant he was taking Kolten home to Heaven.
God has everything in control. We need to learn to let go of the reins sometimes and trust him. Now that this is a distant memory I can say thank you God for teaching me this lesson. Thank you for letting Kolten remain in my life and thank you for having him on par in every aspect of his life.
Faith in God will lead you to great places.